Every day I wake up and go to ‘school’ for an hour. I sit in front of the greatest Teacher in the world, and He looks back at me with the deepest love I’ve ever known.
I used to only go to adoration when I had time to squeeze a visit to the chapel into my day. I used to only go to daily mass when I had an extra half an hour to spare. Now, when we travel with softball and I don’t get to go to mass and holy hour every day, I feel like something is missing. It’s much more difficult to pray on the road when I don’t have the opportunity to be face to face with Jesus. I’m very lucky this semester to only have 3 online classes, so when we’re home, I do have more time during the day to visit Jesus than in past semesters. Last semester when I was student-teaching, I did not have time to go to daily mass or holy hour (or so I thought). In the past, I’ve given Jesus the time I had left over after doing everything else I had to do in my day. I used to think that when I didn’t pray consistently, it was because I didn’t have time, but now I realize it wasn’t that I didn’t have time. I didn’t pray every day because I didn’t have love. I don’t pray every day because I have extra time. I pray every day because I am in love. I love goodness. I love truth. I love beauty. How could I not have fallen in love with the person who embodies all three? I am in love with Jesus, who is goodness, truth, and beauty. I am in love with Jesus because I have seen the way that He looks at me and loves me. He teaches me how to respond in love through the way He loves me. Now I’m not saying that if you don’t attend daily mass and holy hour every single day then you don’t love Jesus. What I am saying is that I know I need to sit in front of Jesus every day or I will get frazzled throughout my day. What I am saying is that I know I need to receive Jesus at mass every day or I will feel empty throughout my day. What I am saying is that in order for me to love, I need to first sit in front of Jesus in adoration and be loved by Him. What I am saying is that in order for me to give myself to others, I must first receive Jesus’ body that He freely gives to me at mass. What I am saying is that I am my best me when I take the time to go to ‘school’ every day to first be loved by the greatest Teacher, Father, and Lover to ever live. Thank you for coming to my TED talk that was inspired partly by adoration this morning, partly from my master’s class on curriculum (hence the ‘school’ and ‘teacher’ reference), and partly from a Matt Fradd podcast I listened to earlier (Steven Rummelsburg on why modern education is not fit for humans).
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